I don’t know how people can just tell you something and not deliver them.
I’m honestly ok if they can just tell me in my face that they can’t do this or that for me. Better than leave me hanging like that right?
Seriously, just be frank. Don’t just chicken out or hope that things will slide of just like that. I happen to have such good memory on remembering promises.
For the past 2 days, seeing at the amount of cars along the highway made me thought of past. The thought was so overwhelming that I choked and had to hold back my tear.
It was then dawned on me that I truly miss the 2 hours drive back to granny’s house, the whole reunion session, my cousins and most of all, my maternal grandparents.
The look on my grandma’s face when our car pulled a stop in front of the kampung house. The same old questions that my grandma asked when we arrived, “Jiak pa liao bui? Ai lim Milo boh?” (Eaten d? Want to drink Milo?) The thin pancakes that my grandpa did for us. How my grandma allowed us to make our own java mee when we were hungry. The little reunion dinner that we had on the 2nd night of Chinese New Year. How noisy the whole house was with the sounds of mahjong tiles knocking against each other, combined with all the yelling and screaming we made as we ran around with cousins. Come night time, my grandpa bolot the whole TV to himself because he wanted to watch his drama series and we were forced to watch that with him. How 5 families bunked in that small single storey terrace house. How dreaded I was to go to the toilet at night because it was so dark behind (thus holding my pee until the next morning).
I remembered asking my grandma, “ah mah, why you always listen to radio?“
If you ask me to describe my 2010 year in a word, I would say – audacious!
The reason why I chose this word is because I realised some things I did this year, I did it out of fear. I boldly attempted stuffs; I didn’t think much about the consequences; I just do because I feel and want to. Here’s the stuff I remembered doing boldly, lol.
In terms of health, I’m glad that my family and I don’t face any big issues in that matter. The health related problems that hit me were my already pulled out wisdom tooth and slight sore throat. I did sprain my ankle somewhere in August but luckily it was a minor injury too.
My 8 feet long wardrobe was so full of dust and fungus ‘motives’ that I decided to do a little spring cleaning in my room. Armed with mixture of detergent and Dettol, I wiped the whole wardrobe inside out sparkling clean and dust and fungus free! Whee!
Seeing the amount of clothes in my wardrobe, I decided to reduce them by taking out the clothes that I could not longer fit in and the ones that I won’t wear anymore. Took out few jeans, old and small size shirts and old dresses and put them aside…
..and that’s when my mum walked in.